Just Enough Crunch

This is me in the raw. An accidental picture taking while attempting to take a pic of something else. You aren't taught how to be self confident it's just something you have to figure out on your own. Being an overweight child I never had any self confidence. I battled bullying, feeling like I didn't fit in, and depression. Transitioning to a teenager was worse. I starved myself, cut myself, battled with a drinking problem and a constant voice in my head telling me why bot her going on. Being in a string of bad relationships taught me that I didn't matter. I was broken, depressed and slowly killing myself with toxins. I tired different things to fix it, moved to NYC and then Europe, bought a fancy car I couldn't afford, made some irresponsible decisions, and drank far too much. Things got better when I met my husband. I learned what a healthy relationship was. The hard part was we were two depressed people that found happiness together. We found...

Anxiety is something Is surrounding me lately. I hear people talking about. I see posts of people overcoming it. I watch the bashing going on about to medicate or treat homeopathically. I feel the shame of being one of those people. You know the people that get questioned, have you tried eating this, drinking this, smelling that. And yes I have tried it all. You know what keeps me sane? Zoloft. A small green pill. That is what brings my body back to homeostasis.   Why does this small pill come with such shame? If I had a heart condition I wouldn’t be shamed for taking medicine for that. But when a woman, yes I am narrowing this down to women now, show that they need some help, it is met with such shame. Sadly this means a lot of women suffer in silence. Today the tv was on in background I heard them talking about Ryan Reynolds and how he is sharing his journey with anxiety. The commenters were questioning if he really knows what anxiety is? He is ...

Tuesday night was our first 911 call in this house. One of the main reasons we rented this house was to be closer to the hospitals, closer to family that could care for us in our time of need, closer for life basically.   I remember sitting in the hospital in august meeting some of the emergency personal that responded to my grandfather’s side, and telling them about our sweet Varrick. I told them all, it will be crazy and then she will be happy. Please just be there to support us in our crazy. Please calm Kensie.   Please just be there. But then we never had to call.  We were able to support her at home. Drive ourselves into the hospital when we knew she needed more than what we could give her. He has asked me numerous times do you think she is growing out of it? Its been a while since blank has happened… I comfort him by saying yes, knowing in my head it just a matter of time…. Tuesday it was fine until it wasn’t. She hadn’t napped that day ...

These words that I will share with you are from the depths of my soul, so I ask you to be kind. I ask for you simply move on if you cannot be supportive. Because these words I am sharing with you, are not for me, they are for a friend that is struggling with the stigma that comes with this topic. My name is Kendra and I take anti depressants. Funny story, they don’t make you not depressed, they don’t take away the pain. They provide me clarity. Some balance in the tornado of my life. They allow me to look at our life objectively. the day I went to the doctors I didn’t go for that reason. I convinced myself I was fine. That I was managing just fine. I went to ask for help because my wellness journey was stalled. I have been unable to lose a pound since having Varrick. If I did see a dip in the scale, it would shoot up 8-10 pounds the next few days. I was working out every day, eating according to my meal plan. I was following the directions but the recipe was still turning out ...

To know me is to know I love a good gadget especially a kitchen one.  So tonight I share with you my current favs, because it changes with the season y'all!!! 5) Cherry and Olive Pitter . this bad boy pits four cherries or four olives AT THE SAME TIME!!!! oh and it also stores the pits for you so you can do something with them.... lmk if you find something i can do with them! I pitted three pounds of cherries in 20 minutes! I did them all. no mess ups. no crazy directions. i just opened the pack and used it! 4)  Veggie Chopper  - this my old school item. I have had one of these for 15 years!!! It chops onions, potatoes, chicken, radishes, herbs, eggs, carrots, garlic.... LEGIT IT ALLL!!!!! it is a bit of work to clean it ( so save that tool that comes with it, or your husband will tell you how awful it is to clean!) I try to use it for all the things in my kitchen before I clean it, that way it is worth the time I ( or him) to clean it.  I do have the pamper che...